Ya gotta be brave to move forward

I just have a few words today. I feel like for the past five years I have felt unlike myself, Though I have had so many incredible moments of growth and immense happiness I just felt like something was missing. I think what i am realizing now is that I was missing. I was living in this place of purgatory. A place I thought I had to stay and all the while I thought I was courageous, really what I realize today is that it takes courage to change and shift and believe in so much more that you thought you could and I feel this incredible gratitude for my children who bring me tears of joy everyday. Tonight they spent 45 mins. straight wrestling and though my son who is the younger of the two children plays a bit wrough with his sister, I knew that they had no intension of hurting each other they were laughimng so hard they were crying. It was so amazing watching them and I thought to myself that mamas are the luckiest people on earth because we love with every fiber of our beings. WE LOVE OUR CHILDREN!!!!! In every moment of frustration when we want to cry or scream we are instantly humbled by our grattitude to hold this love to care and guide and be guided. Lasts nIght my daughter was reading a book to her little brother and the book was about a family who had a home birth. In the book there was a page that discribed how happy the big sister was when she realized that she had a litle brother to love and my daughter Hauna looked at her little brother and said "Teva this is how I felt when you were born", then she kissesd him and he said, "hauna, I love you". Oh my heart melts. So much is changing around me my hope is growing my beliefs are changing I am so ALIVE and GREATFUL!!!!!

We love our chickens too much to eat them!

Though I am aware of the fragility of all human kind, I can not help but to face the facts. If we humans take the path of main stream society we will be at the mercy of our government. The same government which has been in place since the seventeen hundreds. Though in those days the meaning of democracy was more of an entertained reality. These days we mutter the word "democracy" with out actually realizing that Americans do not live in a democracy and haven't ever lived in a democracy. I do believe that this is the intention of the people and with much personal deliberation we will attain democracy not by fighting for it but by living it, This is what Francis Moore lappe Calls a Living Democracy. A form of living where people take matters into their own hands. Each individual doing their part and through this we see large and powerful changes in social structures and economic foundations as a whole. This knowledge has inspired me to establish my very own resolution to live in a way that makes sense. Though I can't always justify my need to drive which I do, or pay a bill to xcel energy every month. Iknow I must do the best with what I have. So I made a list of actions I could take that would create some sustainability for my family and I.
One of the actions on this list was to have layer hens. We purchased twelve chicks, which my children where madly in love with and they just chirped away so sweetly for a while. I kept them in a very large rubber made bin for about two and a half month. Then they were ready to go out. I was really proud because I was dug a two foot deep trench that was about forty feet long in the snow because I really didn't want any of those sweet little ones to get munched by fox. My partner Riley had helped quite a bit and before long they were ready to be outside. Many months had passed and They began to lay eggs. These days we get about a dozen a day, wow that sure is a lot of eggs, we like to give them away! For some reason one always lays a gigantor of a beast of an egg, need to figure out which one and why??????? A question to be answered soon.
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Really cool poem Charlie Chaplin read on his 70th birthday:

Really cool poem Charlie Chaplin read on his 70th birthday:

As I began to love myself - Charlie Chaplin

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering
are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth.
Today, I know, this is "AUTHENTICITY".

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody
as I try to force my desires on this person,
even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it,
and even though this person was me.
Today I call it "RESPECT".

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life,
and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow.
Today I call it "Maturity".

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance,
I am in the right place at the right time,
and everything happens at the exactly right moment.
So I could be calm.
Today I call it "SELF-CONFIDENCE".

As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time,
and I stopped designing huge projects for the future.
Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness,
things I love to do and that make my heart cheer,
and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm.
Today I call it "SIMPLICITY".

As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything
that is no good for my health - food, people, things, situations,
and everything the drew me down and away from myself.
At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism.
Today I know it is "LOVE OF ONESELF".

As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right,
and ever since I was wrong less of the time.
Today I discovered that is "MODESTY".

As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past
and worry about the future.
Now, I only live for the moment, where EVERYTHING is happening.
Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it. "FULFILLMENT".

As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me
and it can make me sick.
But As I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally.
Today I call this connection "WISDOM OF THE HEART".

We no longer need to fear arguments,
confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others.
Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born.
Today I know THAT IS "LIFE"!

http://www.savethepoudre.org/

Not in our back yard- Ft. Collins Vs. Powertech

I contemplated the intentions behind my blogging and though there is an immense amount of gratitude and bliss that I feel from day to day I also find myself feeling angry and passionate. Yes I said those two word in the same sentence. Now it's not the lovers passion that I feel, though that would be nice, it's the passion to express my absolute disdain for greed and ignorance.
For the past nine years I have lived within a peace loving community of Northern Colorado called Ft. Collins. A place were people ride bikes because they should and a place where children live in actual cohesive communities. I mean real communities, strong communities. For the most part, from what my observations have been thus far, People here care about their future and the future of the world in general. Not all people but many. In recent years the community here has been faced with multiple ecological threats and now these threats and rumors are becoming realities and the community is fighting to see these things not only set into remission but dismissed completely on accounts of environmental negligence. Over the past few years we have been fighting to prevent the local river from being dammed as well as fighting to prevent the mining of uranium in a town just eleven miles away. Here are some links that can provide some deeper insight on why we want to save the Poudre and why we don't want powertech's greedy hands devastating our community's health and resources in such ways that it has in the past to other communities. Please read on and feel free to send donations to the following organizations.

http://www.matterdaily.org/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=11:will-nunn-glow&catid=2:science-a-health&Itemid=9

http://www.powertechexposed.com

http://www.savethepoudre.org

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COMING SOON

I am in the process of documenting my very own guide how to create sustainability in an urban setting, or semi urban, Born in Philadelphia we had a yard, we grew some food but never went too big. Now as an adult I have set all intentions forth onto creating a plot of land that I can utilize for growning food. This year I have built a chicken coop that houses 10 hens, (will post pics and coop design soon) Also I have planted a cherry tree and three grapes, Five raspberry bushes and a hill of strawberries. In conjunction to five raised garden beds. I anticipate that in years from now my family will be able to enjoy a wide range of harvested foods right from our yard! People all over the world are doing this very same thing. If we contemplate these practices as a way of acquiring security then we will be quick to realize that this type of security is real security. Though the convenience of acquiring goods from the local market seems to alleviate many stresses from our busy lives, it also places large burdens on the planet. Though the Doritos might taste well the bi product of the consummation of such products are huge and not imperative for our survival, in fact with all the additives in foods such as this, the negative effects stretch beyond burdens on the planet, they effect the human body and mind as well, remember MSG (mono sodium Glutamate is a Nero toxin) I suggest looking into it and maybe even questioning how it effects human behavior and child development!
here are a few interesting articles.

http://www.thenaturalguide.com/synthetic-food-msg.htm
http://befreetech.com/msg.html

Thanks for reading!

A way to feel full of life

Oh yes and some of this will help along the way!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DBl5gAs6WI

Not Just a Virtual Revolution

Though thousands upon thousands of people know that there are astronomical problems with in the functional systems of the world, somehow we as a people have lost power over our governments, and have we ever really had power as a people? What seems like a free nation to some seems like a prison to others. We are pigeon holed into a specific way of life and many of us are treading water just to keep from drowning, mean while the tides are rising and just because some of us are floating by on rafts does not mean that our rafts are sturdy enough to withstand the debry which is being left by our political and economic systems. The lack of sustainability which we accept as just being( a part of reality) is simply a design for destruction. These systems have been in place for such a long period of time that many of us have lost touch with the intention behind our political agenda and though we know something is wrong somehow it remains to be that the power to create a healthy world for our children is becoming a daunting and almost impossible task that the man on the hill simply could not care for. How can we regain the power so that the children of tomorrow can live a life of hope, health and peace?